The Miracle of Little Bug (in a nutshell)
Mar 09, 2008
It was always my dream to marry and start having babies right away. So, three months after our May 2007 wedding, we started trying to conceive.
Every single pregnancy test was stark white.
After six months of trying, we made an appointment with a Reproductive Endocrinologist.
We underwent three cycles of IUI (four if you count the cancelled cycle). Not one of them resulted in a pregnancy.
Our hearts were broken. We were weary in every way imaginable, but we clung to the promise of God found in Jeremiah 29:11:
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to bring you hope and a future."
It was there we found constant HOPE because we knew God had a plan. It obviously wasn't our plan, but it was a plan that was going to prosper us and bring us hope and a future.
In November 2008, after the three failed IUIs, I had laparoscopic surgery. Stage 2 Endometriosis was found and excised.
During Christmas of 2008, we took a break from infertility treatments and prayed for a Christmas Miracle. Later, we learned God had given us a Christmas Miracle that very Christmas - we just were not aware of it until months later!
God opened our hearts to adoption that month.
After the New Year, we began preparations for our upcoming IVF cycle, thinking we would adopt after having (hopefully) one biological child.
March 8th, 2009, was by far the worst day of our journey through infertility. But even on that very dark day God was setting the stage for a miracle!
About eight days into the ovary stimulation process of IVF we had a doctor's appointment where we learned only one follicle was growing and developing.
When our doctor told us that at most we could probably only expect 2-3 follicles to grow, even with IVF meds, I knew my dream to marry and get pregnant was dying.
The IVF cycle was cancelled and we began seeking the Lord as to what to do next.
Even as I lay on the examination table on March 8th, I knew God was leading us to adoption now, and not later, as I had planned.
Not quite ready to give up on my childhood dream of pregnancy and childbirth, I argued with God for a time.
In the end, I knew God was asking me to surrender my desires for His Will and to TRUST HIM.
So I began working on filling out our adoption paperwork. It took about 2-3 weeks to fill out the paperwork, gather the required documents from the agency and create our Family Profile.
On April 9th, 2009, I took all the paperwork to the adoption agency and handed them to the lawyer who told me, "We had an adoption fall through this week. The birth mom is due in June. If you would like a baby in June, you can have one!"
I left the office in awe of our faithful God.
On May 27th, 2009, forty-eight days after I walked into the adoption agency, I witnessed the birth of my daughter, Little Bug. As I held her in my arms for the first time, I knew I was holding a five pound, twelve ounce miracle from God.
My plans were not God's Plans, but I soon learned God had plans that were far greater and far bigger than anything I could plan for myself.
I am not living my dreams. I am living the Something More God had planned for me since before I took my first breath and it is way more amazing than the plans I had for myself as a newlywed!
Every single pregnancy test was stark white.
After six months of trying, we made an appointment with a Reproductive Endocrinologist.
We underwent three cycles of IUI (four if you count the cancelled cycle). Not one of them resulted in a pregnancy.
Our hearts were broken. We were weary in every way imaginable, but we clung to the promise of God found in Jeremiah 29:11:
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to bring you hope and a future."
It was there we found constant HOPE because we knew God had a plan. It obviously wasn't our plan, but it was a plan that was going to prosper us and bring us hope and a future.
In November 2008, after the three failed IUIs, I had laparoscopic surgery. Stage 2 Endometriosis was found and excised.
During Christmas of 2008, we took a break from infertility treatments and prayed for a Christmas Miracle. Later, we learned God had given us a Christmas Miracle that very Christmas - we just were not aware of it until months later!
God opened our hearts to adoption that month.
After the New Year, we began preparations for our upcoming IVF cycle, thinking we would adopt after having (hopefully) one biological child.
March 8th, 2009, was by far the worst day of our journey through infertility. But even on that very dark day God was setting the stage for a miracle!
About eight days into the ovary stimulation process of IVF we had a doctor's appointment where we learned only one follicle was growing and developing.
When our doctor told us that at most we could probably only expect 2-3 follicles to grow, even with IVF meds, I knew my dream to marry and get pregnant was dying.
The IVF cycle was cancelled and we began seeking the Lord as to what to do next.
Even as I lay on the examination table on March 8th, I knew God was leading us to adoption now, and not later, as I had planned.
Not quite ready to give up on my childhood dream of pregnancy and childbirth, I argued with God for a time.
In the end, I knew God was asking me to surrender my desires for His Will and to TRUST HIM.
So I began working on filling out our adoption paperwork. It took about 2-3 weeks to fill out the paperwork, gather the required documents from the agency and create our Family Profile.
On April 9th, 2009, I took all the paperwork to the adoption agency and handed them to the lawyer who told me, "We had an adoption fall through this week. The birth mom is due in June. If you would like a baby in June, you can have one!"
I left the office in awe of our faithful God.
On May 27th, 2009, forty-eight days after I walked into the adoption agency, I witnessed the birth of my daughter, Little Bug. As I held her in my arms for the first time, I knew I was holding a five pound, twelve ounce miracle from God.
My plans were not God's Plans, but I soon learned God had plans that were far greater and far bigger than anything I could plan for myself.
I am not living my dreams. I am living the Something More God had planned for me since before I took my first breath and it is way more amazing than the plans I had for myself as a newlywed!
*****
From the ups and downs of infertility treatments to the miraculous adoption of our baby girl, the posts on this blog serve to tell the world that there is a faithful God who is intricately involved in our lives.
We just have to decide to put our faith in Him and trust Him to turn our mourning into dancing.
If you feel like life is falling apart and nothing is going the way you thought it would or the way you planned, choose Christ!
Put your faith in Jesus Christ and discover the Something More He has for your life.
It will be better than your wildest dreams!
NOTE: You have just read the nutshell version of The Miracle of Little Bug. To read her story in greater detail, click on the posts located on the side bar of this blog. (COMING SOON!)
- Elaine