I have not heard from the doctor about the blood test results. I have called and left a message and also emailed my nurse.

If you can’t tell, I am a little frustrated at the whole ordeal. I’m just tired. Tired of dream after dream dying. Tired of waiting and waiting. Tired of spending money for nothing. I guess you could say I’m having a hard time accepting God’s will right now and was hoping beyond hoping that maybe, just maybe, God’s will would be for this to work the first time.

Please pray that I can surrender my will for God’s and focus on the positives. (ie. It could be worse, I suppose. Like getting the phone call everyone dreads on the infertility road telling them that after all the ups and downs, procedures, pokes and prods and money spent, “The Blood Test” has come back and no, sorry, you’re not pregnant. Currently, my worse nightmare.)

Thanks for letting me vent even though I have no idea exactly how many people really read this blog. But writing has always been very therapeutic for me.

I’m counting on rejoicing coming in the morning…

- Elaine