One week of the wait is almost done.

The reality of the situation is that on August *beep* (I don't want to disclose the date because I want there to be some sort of "surprise" when I finally am able to announce I am pregnant!) I will hear the words, "You are pregnant." or "You are not pregnant."

No matter what I hear that day, I will immediately be catapulted into an array of emotions. No matter what I hear that day, the two-week wait will FINALLY be over and I will finally know one way or the other. And...no matter what I hear that day, I have to accept it as part of God's perfect plan for my life.

And that is the hard part. Because I know if I hear the sentence with the "not", it is inevitable that I will have one of those crying, sad, angry, frustrated days. It brings tears to my eyes right now even thinking about it. And that is so silly because I know God is on my side.

But that is not to say that He is going to allow pregnancy this month.

I am amazed at how many people are involved in this simply through prayer. Not a day goes by that someone doesn't tell me they are praying. It may be a family member, a friend, or even a complete stranger who does not know me but has read my blog.

Knowing that the throne of God is constantly being bombarded with prayers on my behalf makes it is so easy to think that God is going to answer all these prayers and allow me to be pregnant now!

The fact is is that God may in fact decide the best way He can be glorified through this is to answer all these prayers with a pregnancy. Or He may decide He can best be glorified through not allowing pregnancy.

Obviously, I, along with all my prayer warriors, desire that I be pregnant NOW! But this isn't about me. It's about Him.

And really all I can do is sit back and watch how God is going to work here. And there lies peace. I know God is at work regardless the outcome of August *beep*. I believe and cling to the Word of God like I have never done before and I know God has plans to prosper me and not to harm me, plans to give me HOPE and a future (Jeremiah 29:11).

I'm living in the unknown now, but I do know God is at work and has a beautiful plan beyond anything anyone could imagine. Stay tuned to see that plan unfold! And keep bombarding the throne of God on my behalf!

I cannot say "Thank you" enough.

- Elaine