As the two-week wait gets closer and closer to the end I find myself pondering what will be the best way to see if I am pregnant or not.

Unless you've been there, there is just no way to accurately describe the moments before the truth is revealed, whether you have gone through a fertility treatment or not. The fact of the matter is, in those moments before looking at the pregnancy test to see the results or waiting for that call from the doctor's office, it is unnerving. If you are hoping you are pregnant, you are hoping beyond hoping the results will be positive, but at the same time, you are bracing yourself for a negative result. Unnerving.

So you might be thinking, "I thought she has to wait to go in for blood work to see if she is pregnant." True. But I technically could get a sneak peak of what those results will be from two other sources. Which is the dilemma rolling through my mind these days. Which will be the least unnerving in revealing this news??

Hum...let's see.

I take my basal temperature every morning at 6:30am. Basal temps tell a lot. When you ovulate, there is a spike in the temps and then you can see an obvious shift in temps from low temps to now, higher temps. When your period is about to come, the temps drop once again. That is how I know my period is on it's way. One morning I take my temperature and see the temp has drastically dropped. That is how I have known many times throughout this process that I am not pregnant that month.

So...I could keep taking my temps and hope they stay high! But then I will have to take the temp and then when I hear the beep, quickly open my cell phone for light so I can read the temp and not wake up my sleeping husband. Then there will be the immediate sigh of relief when the temp is still high or the drop of the heart if the temp has once again fallen. One word describes this process: unnerving.

Or I could take a pregnancy test the morning before the scheduled blood work day. But this involves peeing on a stick and then letting it sit there while I wait for an eternity of three minutes. Then I will see either one or two lines and be flooded with completely opposite emotions depending on the number of lines displayed on the stick. One word: unnerving.

And then there leaves the Blood Work Day which involves driving to the doctor's office, getting pricked for the umpteenth time, driving home and doing who knows what while I wait for the phone call. UNNERVING!

So I guess I'm stuck. Finding out is just going to be unnerving one way or the other! I am just praying for peace on that day. Peace no matter what the news is.

Please pray God's peace will engulf and consume our hearts as we enter this week.

- Elaine