As soon as the nurse told me the blood test was negative, I began asking her about the next cycle. I told H that I wanted to do a natural cycle (meaning using no birth control) and I wanted to have a meeting with Dr. L to discuss cycle 2 and plan for cycle 3.

Turns out Dr. L won’t be in the office until August 14th so that would be the earliest date I could meet with him. Which means, if I want to do a natural cycle without having to be on birth control for 2 weeks before starting the IUI cycle, I will have to wait until about the second week of September to begin cycle three.

Remember I said that I just really feel God saying to me, “Be still and know that I am God.” I really believe God is just wanting us to have this month of doing absolutely nothing as far as fertility treatments go.

I am just going to be still and allow God to teach me. I plan to use this blog as a way for me to process what God teaches me by writing about what He teaches and reveals to me.

I do have an appointment with Dr. L on August 14th to discuss the next cycle. But for the next 5-6 weeks there will be no ultrasounds, no shots, no tracking follicle growth, no ups and downs. And that is just nice to think about. It’s like the eye of the storm…calm.

The pain of our yesterdays still hurt, but the fact of the matter is life goes on. It has to. And we move forward still trusting in an all-powerful, faithful God.

- Elaine