One of the hardest things to do during a cycle is to remain cautiously hopeful during the 2-week wait.

I want to believe with all my heart that all I’ve just gone through to even get the chance of a 2-week wait will pay off and I will hear words I’ve dreamed of hearing for a long, long time. I want to believe sperm will meet egg and baby will result 9 months later.

But then I think about all those months I was so hopeful only to have my dreams come crashing in on me in the form of another negative home pregnancy test or the arrival of the unwanted period.

So I remain cautiously hopeful during the 2-week wait. And that is so difficult. Because if I am believing I am pregnant, I know I may only be setting myself up for another great disappointment. But if I never hope it will eventually work, why even go through with the treatments?

See the dilemma here? But it does not have to be a dilemma anymore. A very wise friend of mine helped me see this in a brand new light.

I must not put my hope in a positive pregnancy test. I must put my hope in God.

That totally changes my outlook on hoping this month will be the month! Instead, my hope is in God. My hope is in knowing that even if this month is not the month, God is still the same God He was before I again receive that dreadful phone call.

Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God. Psalm 42:5

- Elaine