I have to be at St. Luke's Hospital at 8:20am tomorrow morning. Surgery is scheduled for 10:20am. Dr. L told me, depending on what is found, the surgery will be 1 to 3 hours.

I've tried not to think about it too much but at the beginning of this week I was thinking a lot. It's just scary. I don't want anything to happen to me and then Dave be left alone. I know the odds aren't high in something happening but with surgery and anesthesia the risk is there, however slight it may be. And I just don't like it.

Then I think about what may be found. Who knows what is in there!

Many decisions will follow the outcome of this surgery. More rounds of IUI? IVF? Stop treatments all together?

I don't feel people who do IVF, or IUI for that matter, play God or go against the Will of God - unless they know in their heart God is saying no and yet they deliberately disobey and go through treatments. I believe God can use IUI or IVF to accomplish His Will and bring glory and honor to His name. Each person and circumstance is uniquely different. He may use IUI or IVF for one couple and not for another.

I believe discerning the Will of God is all about living life one day at a time with an attitude of surrender, service and obedience to God. I know so many times I've set out to "find God's Will for my life" only to discover that as I live my life for Him, His Will is automatically played out in my life. I don't have to go searching and "find it".

I am trusting and believe that after surgery, when we have a clear picture of possible underlying issues we were not aware of before, God will clearly show us the next step and we will move forward from there.

My prayer now only needs to be that we will be obedient. Obedience is key. Without obedience to the Lord it is impossible to allow God's Will to reign in your life. And without obedience it is not possible to receive the blessings God wishes to pour out on a life lived in obedience to Him.

And as far as all my worry and fear - that needs to be handed to the Lord. He will take care of me - and Dave - no matter what happens.

Please pray for me tomorrow! I am nervous and just want it to be behind us. Please pray for Dr. L as he performs the surgery. Pray that if there is anything abnormal found, Dr. L can take care of it right then and there. Pray the Lord will guide Dr. L's hands. Pray for the anesthesiologist. Pray he gives me just the right amount and that there will be no side-effects.

And, as always, and most importantly, pray God will receive glory no matter the outcome of tomorrow.

He holds it all in His very capable hands.

I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength. Phil. 4:13

I do not intend to stay down for long as I hate being "sick". So, I hope to be back on the blog to give an update by the end of the day tomorrow.

THANK YOU FOR PRAYING ME THROUGH ANOTHER BUMP IN THE ROAD TO PARENTHOOD!!

- Elaine