God answered our prayers yesterday with a no.

Of course, I was sad.

But then I realized I had two choices and I was the only one who could choose what I was going to do with the news that God chose not to allow me to be pregnant this month.

I can choose to be angry. Angry at God because here I've struggled 16 months to conceive and I've had this surgery and the endometriosis is gone. I greatly desire to be a mother and am so ready to just be pregnant. I can choose to question why God didn't just let it happen. I can choose to wallow in self-pity that so many people I know personally and through the blogging world are pregnant this Christmas Season.

Or I can choose Jesus. I can choose to rest in the fact that God has a plan and purpose behind all of this. I can choose to trust in Him and His perfect plan. I can choose to find peace in knowing that even though I don't know what God is doing, I know He is still at work.

I choose Jesus.

I feel it in my heart that God is still working a miracle, and in His time, He will reveal just what He is doing.

Keep praying!

- Elaine