In this decision-making process, I have come to realize that my biggest fear in moving towards any direction is fear that at the end we will still hear those five dreaded words: “Sorry, you are not pregnant.”

Realizing this was Step One in not allowing fear to consume me.

Step Two is diving into the Word of God and pulling out verse after verse about fear.

The fear I’m talking about is not the reverent fear we should all have for God.

The fear I’m talking about is a downright all-consuming, dark-cloud-hovering-all-around-you kind of fear.

God has a lot to say about both types of fears and the verses I’m digging out of the Bible have to do with the “dark cloud” kind of fear. 

Every day I am spending time looking up verses about fear and then writing the message behind them in my “infertility journal”. Then I write down the truth from God’s Word I received for that day. I’m on day three and the first verse I found was:

For God did not give us a spirit of timidity [fear], but a spirit of power, of love and of self discipline. I Timothy 1:7

Here is what I wrote in the journal about this verse:

God is my creator and He did not create me with a spirit of FEAR. God has given me a spirit of power, of love and of self discipline. A spirit of power! We also know from Scripture that when we are weak, we are strong because of God’s power and strength within us. So as I go through whatever lies ahead in the near future, I must cling to this and know God has given me the power and strength to endure whatever happens. And when I look inside myself I should see power and strength from God pushing out all fear.

Truth One: God has given me a spirit of POWER – not fear.

- Elaine