Today’s been rough even though I know a lot worst things could have happened.

Estrogen level = 40

In the words of my nurse, “That’s on the low side, but it’s okay because it means you definitely don’t have a dominate follicle in there.”

At that point I am thinking, Well I’d just like to know that there is a follicle in there and having, you know, maybe TEN would be fine and dandy considering I AM DOING IVF!

Of course I didn’t say that, though! :)

So here’s the deal: Dr. L increased my menopur dosage to 375ui every night. Follistim is still the same dosage (100ui every morning). I will go in on Sunday at 9am for another ultrasound.

PLEASE PRAY MANY FOLLICLES ARE FOUND AND GROWING ON SUNDAY!

So tonight was Freak Out Session One for IVF. I basically second guessed my protocol because of things I’ve researched and from what someone else told me. The Freak Out Session eventually brought me to this conclusion:

I need to stop thinking, stop researching and just trust that Dr. L knows what he’s doing. I know he knows what he’s doing. That’s why I chose him as my RE! After all, he is a doctor that went through the schooling to learn what he knows and is even now involved in many research projects. This doc knows his stuff. I have to trust that 100ui of Follistim and 5 vials of Menopur are just what my ovaries need to produce some follicles.

End of discussion. End of Freak Out Session.

The comments received today were the icing on the cake and just what I needed to hear tonight to help get my mind refocused. So, THANK YOU to everyone who commented in one way or another. Thank you to everyone who prayed. God is still at work. God is ALWAYS at work - even when it seems your follicles will never grow!

I finished my “IVF Verses Scrapbook” today. Just in time to look over it and read God’s Word and allow it to soak in and put my mind at ease! If only I could resort to doing this before resorting to a Freak Out Session! I don’t know if that will ever be possible this side of heaven.

Keep the prayers coming. IVF is definitely an uphill battle all the way but I WILL persevere.

- Elaine