It was exactly one year ago today that I started this blog.

I never imagined on March 7, 2008 that this blog would …

• become an integral part of my infertility journey.
  
• be a place for me to sort through the many thoughts and feelings that accompany something like going through infertility.
  
• be a place for me to be a witness to anyone who reads that God IS faithful through even the darkest trials life has to offer.
  
• connect me to many incredible other women walking this road.
  
• be the “Command Center” for initiating masses of people to pray me through this season of my life.
  

Honestly, I started the blog because I wanted a place for family and friends to come to receive updates so I wouldn’t have to spend hours on the phone giving updates after doctor appointments!

And, as always, God’s plan for this blog has turned out to be way better and way bigger than anything I could have planned one year ago today.

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After injecting ALL OF THIS into my stomach twice daily for the past week, there have GOT to be follicles growing in there somewhere.

Don’t forget to pray the game of hide-n-seek ends tomorrow as I go in for another ultrasound.

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To anyone reading this and facing self-inflicted IVF injections in the near future, after a week of them, I can still say it really isn’t bad at all!

The injection sites do become tender after a couple of days and your stomach will begin to look like a pin cushion but other than that, it’s really no big deal.

Amazing, even if I do say so myself!

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I haven’t really allowed myself to do much thinking in the department of “If this works …”

But, if this works in one month from now I will actually be pregnant.

If this works, I will celebrate my 28th birthday 3-months-pregnant.

If this works, this Christmas will be spent with a newborn in the house.

It’s nice to think this way, but I can’t leave my mind there. For now, I must focus on one day at a time and I’m not quite there yet.

But it is, however, nice to allow myself to think about that if only for the few minutes it has taken me to write these sentences.

It’s like a spring flower shooting up after a long cold winter.

My time will come. All this is but for a season. This I do believe with all my heart … I will be a mother, one day.

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What would I do without my IVF Verses Scrapbook?

Flounder around aimlessly and drown in a sea of worry, I suppose.

- Elaine