Birth mom is 37 weeks today.

I am so ready for Little Bug to be here. Now that we’ve reached 37 weeks Little Bug will now be full-term, no matter when she enters this world.

Birth mom was 30w4d when I walked into the lawyer’s office, turned in the paperwork and learned of Little Bug that very day.

That will be seven weeks ago on Thursday.

Seven weeks?

Which means it was only eleven weeks ago today that I lay on that table in the RE’s office and learned our IVF cycle was a complete bust. One measly follicle. One harsh diagnosis. A dream of pregnancy and childbirth crushed.

Who would have thought eleven weeks from then the spare bedroom would be transformed into a nursery, a cradle would be in our bedroom, an infant car seat would be in the back seat of our car and we would be anticipating the arrival of our firstborn?

It will never cease to amaze me how we went from thinking children were still a distant dream for us to being catapulted into parenthood in a matter of one month.

Brings me to a sensitive subject for anyone going through infertility.

There were times (many times) throughout our journey that I despised hearing, “It will happen in God’s Time.” I heard it many times and even though I knew that was right, there were just times that was the last thing I wanted to hear.

I wanted things to happen now! Waiting was so incredibly hard. There were days that seemed like months and months that seemed like an eternity.

But, you know, now as I stand back and look at the entire picture of this journey, I know God’s Timing has everything to do with everything that has happened along the way.

Every heartache, every tear, every failed treatment and every failed pregnancy was leading to one thing: the miracle of Little Bug.

April 9, 2009, will forever be a very special day in our lives. I compare it to someone going through infertility and then finally seeing two pink lines on a pregnancy test. Our lives forever changed in the instant I heard the lawyer say, “We had an adoption fall through this week. If you want a baby in June you can have one!”

April 9, 2009, was our time for Little Bug to enter our lives. All along that was the day. All along it was a matter of faithfully pressing forward to the day that God had ordained from the beginning of time for Little Bug to enter our lives.

I do admit it is getting really hard to wait for that phone call that the birth mom has gone into labor. We have Little Bug in our hearts and we are so ready to have her in our arms.

But, again we will wait for God’s Perfect Timing.

He knows the day and hour that Little Bug will be born.

I cannot even begin to imagine what that day will be like.

- Elaine