Little Bug is going to see her birth mother again!

We have an outing scheduled for Monday!

Tracy asked if she could see Little Bug again and I did not hesitate in saying, “Yes.”

If the roles were reversed and I had given birth to a baby that I placed for adoption, I would want the opportunity to see that child again, too.

One thing I regret is never getting a photograph of Little Bug and Tracy after Little Bug’s birth. I will get one on Monday as long as Tracy agrees a photograph should be taken.

I feel that when Little Bug starts asking questions about her adoption, it will be good for her to hold something tangible of the woman who gave her life.

I know Monday Little Bug will be completely oblivious as to what is going on around her, but to the woman who gave her life and to the woman who is her mother, this will be a very special day.

A wise friend of mine once said, “If you expect nothing, you won’t be disappointed!” That is how I look at this reunion.

I am not going to expect anything. The meeting will go how it goes.

I plan to take a step back and allow Little Bug and Tracy to interact as they please. I imagine Tracy will be amazed at what a sweet, smart, beautiful little girl Little Bug has grown to be – just as everyone else who meets her is. I imagine Little Bug might play her shy card at first as she sometimes tends to do with strangers, but by the end of our meeting, I imagine Little Bug will be telling Tracy about everything she sees and pointing to every bird and plane she sees in the sky.

No matter what, I know I am Little Bug’s mother.

No matter what, I know that Tracy gave her life.

It’s a triangle relationship. Tracy and me with Little Bug uniting us at the top point.

We both serve a purpose in Little Bug’s life. And if we both embrace our purposes in Little Bug’s adoption, our adoption story can proclaim to the world a story of redemption, which is what adoption is really all about anyway.

Tracy knew she could not mother this child and chose adoption for her.

I opened my heart to love a child that is not flesh of my flesh or bone of my bone, but a child that I love more than I ever thought was humanly possible.

I know with every fiber of my being that being someone’s mother does not require shared DNA.

Every adoption has a story of redemption – if the time is taken to look for it.

Monday will be one more page of Little Bug’s story of redemption as she and her birth mother are reunited, if only for a season of time.

I am excited to see this story continue to unfold.

And I am so incredibly grateful to be given this opportunity.

Prayers would be appreciated on Monday!

- Elaine