The war rages, but I am completely at peace.

I know that GOD is in control.

None of this is a surprise to Him.

He still has a perfect plan and all the drama of the past few days is a part of His plan.

And ultimately I know this: This is not about me, or Dave, or Tracy or even this baby.

This is all about God receiving glory in and through these circumstances.

I know Satan is attacking big time but I am not allowing him to have any victory in this.

God is in control.

Satan may think he has control now, Tracy may think she is in control, but I know THE TRUTH.

God is in control.

And that truth has set me free and there is complete peace in my soul as I type this out.

I am sorry I cannot be specific. Please understand that I just cannot put details here. I just need everyone reading this to pray for this situation and to especially pray for our lawyer today as she is trying to get to the bottom of what is really going on.

I will update when I can.

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To the readers who have recently contacted me through email, please understand that it may take a little while for me to write you back, given these circumstances that I am having to deal with now.

And let me just go ahead and say this.

I receive emails from readers pretty often. Most are going through infertility or just starting the adoption process. Every single reader says that they have read something in my blog that has encouraged them and helped them as they walk this road. Satan hates that.

Is it coincidence that every time I have logged into my email over the past 48 hours as this drama has taken place, I have received another email from another reader stating how God is using my blog to minister to the hearts of others?

I think not.

I am not joking when I say that there is a battle between good and evil going on around us.

What I find hilarious is that Satan continues to attack. But he is also getting a pretty good beat down because God is also still at work and is the mastermind behind the beauty that will come from these current ashes.

Because, you know, beauty is coming. Regardless of the outcome of all this drama.

It is a very comforting place to be knowing that I don’t have to get up and fight this battle. My God has said, “Let me handle this.”

No matter what happens today, I know that God has a plan already in place. My role in this process is to sit back in surrender and let God fight on my behalf, knowing full well the outcome.

My God will win. He already has, when he came to this earth, live and died and rose again 3 days later. The victory is already His.

And consequentially, the victory is already mine because I am His.

- Elaine