One week ago today…

we finally had answers.

I cannot tell you how many times people have said to me that they are “amazed with the way I handled everything”.

Peeps (as Little Bug says when referring to a group of people), it wasn’t me.

And while I know this totally sounds cliché, it is the absolute truth:

It was all God.

I have never experienced the presence of God more in my life than I did from January 24th to January 31st.

It really is indescribable.

I have tried to put into words what it felt like to think you are going to adopt a baby in the summer only to start getting clues that maybe there is no baby to having to be a detective with your lawyer over a period of seven days only to discover the woman who gave birth to your child is in fact lying about a baby who never existed or was lost through a miscarriage.

Sometimes I still find myself asking myself, Did all that really happen?

Today, one week later, I am thankful for it all.

I am thankful for that phone call from the lawyer on December 13th.

I am thankful for the time we spent with Tracy at the zoo and for the pictures I now have for Little Bug.

I am thankful for the opportunities God gave me to be the hands and feet of Jesus to Tracy.

I am thankful for the wisdom of my father.

I am thankful that God gave me what I needed right when I needed it to “fight” and get answers last Monday morning.

I am thankful for my the “departing texts” Tracy and I exchanged.

And I am so incredible thankful for the miracle God has performed in the life of my Little Bug.

I knew that before all this, but now, the magnitude of the miracle of her adoption has grown by leaps and bounds as I think of what could have been had Tracy not chosen adoption for Little Bug.

I am forever grateful that despite the constant crisis and turmoil that is her life, Tracy chose adoption for Little Bug.

It has forever changed Little Bug’s life, and it has forever changed mine.

And last, but certainly not least, I am thankful for what is still to come.

This story, this work that God is doing in and through my family, is certainly not over nor complete.

I am thankful that I have front row seats to see what God is going to do next.

- Elaine