I consider myself an “Infertility Survivor”. I know some people claim they will “always be an infertile”. I just don’t think that way.

Sure, physically, I will always be infertile. My rotten eggs are not going to suddenly become viable and produce a pregnancy.

Emotionally, I am no longer “infertile”. Infertility does not affect my every day life anymore, even though, technically, we are “trying to conceive #2”. However, there was absolutely no consideration from me to even attempt to go back to infertility treatments this time around.

My heart is completely, wholly, 100% set on adoption.

Infertility is a thing of the past, a season of my life that has come, and now has gone. And while infertility is no longer a part of my everyday life, infertility has certainly left a permanent imprint on my heart and molded me into the woman I am today.

And I am forever grateful.

This morning as I was writing in my journal, I decided that this is something I needed to publish. So here it is: (I pray it brings encouragement to those of you reading this who are affected everyday by infertility - or whatever other trial God may have placed in your life).

My heart is just filled with excitement. Excitement for the miracle God is going to perform…again!

I love being infertile because it has stretched my faith to the point where I can honestly look into a future filled with tons of unknowns and be completely at peace because I know God is working, even at this very moment, and is ready to allow something as horrible and ugly as my infertility to proclaim to the world, once again, that God is faithful through it all.

As I look back on this journey, which began almost four years ago, I can see that every failed cycle, every disappointment and every dream that was shattered was used in a way only God could orchestrate so that HE would receive glory and I would become the woman I am today.

As painful as this journey has been for me, I wouldn’t choose any other path. On the day I was born God knew my body would never procreate. He also knew He had something more planned for me instead.

As we have officially begun our journey to #2 I just stand in great expectation of what God is going to do next.

I know it will be nothing short of another miracle.

And that is just exciting to think about.

- Elaine