That's what I am doing...hanging in there.

I know there are many people out there who bring a new baby home without the support and help of there own mother and to you I say...BIG KUDDOS.

I would be a wreck right now if it wasn't for my mom. I realize the huge blessing she is and I a so thankful to God that she is here and available and willing to help me so much.

Saturday night and Sunday were pretty rough compared to how things had been going. I started seeing more withdrawal signs from Sweet Pea. Mainly tummy pains after feedings, a need to be away from commotion and a furrowed brow signaling she is in pain.

So yesterday I kept Sweet Pea on a feeding schedule of 2 ounces every 3ish hours. I also started giving her gas drops after every feed and sometimes she gets gripe water as well.

I've noticed a pattern...after feeds Sweet Pea is restless and fussy for about an hour until she finally settles back to sleep until the next feed. Her poor little tummy. It is so hard seeing her in pain.

I tried a new formula this morning and it was a huge no go. She was screaming in pain as we were driving to the hospital for a blood draw. I pulled over and gave her some gripe water and she instantly settled until her next feed.

We took her today for her first blood draw to check her red blood cell count since being released from the hospital. We go back to the pedi on Friday for her two week check up and to get the blood draw results from today.

Please pray that Sweet Pea won't need another transfusion.

I just keep reminding myself all this will pass.

It's just really hard to know my baby is in pain because of exposure to methadone in the womb. She is laying right beside me sleeping peacefully on the couch as I write this from my phone.

She will get through this and I will be with her through it every step of the way.

How's Little Bug? She is still doing fine. I really put my focus on Sweet Pea yesterday and today I am going to make a point to read to her today. She was wanting me to do that when we were headed out the door this morning. I need to spend some one on one time with her today. I know I will open the door to jealousy if I don't take the time to read to her every day.

Oh someone asked if Sweet Pea's hair is red! While the after bath picture does look like her hair is red, it is not! Right now her hair looks dark.

Someone is stirring! It's feeding time.

- Elaine