I never wanted to marry someone younger than me and I never wanted to have my children less than 3 years apart.

I am married to someone who is 3.5 years younger than me.

My children are 26 months apart.

There is a saying out there that goes something like this: God never gives you more than you can handle.

I don’t agree with that because I think He DOES give us more than we can handle so that we will turn to HIM for strength.

I nearly have a panic attack every time I think about the first day it will be just the girls and me at home.

I’m spoiled. My mother has been here with us helping out since the day we came home from the hospital. Maybe I am spoiled, but I like to think that I am incredibly blessed.

First of all, that I want my mother in my house for a week straight. I know, for some, that would just create more stress. Not for me. My Mama is one of my best friends.

And second of all, that my husband wants his mother-in-law in our house for a week straight. He loves her like he loves his own Mom.

Blessed. Extremely blessed.

But, there is going to come a day (very soon) when Mama is going to have to pack up and move the ever long distance of about 10ish miles back to her house.

And it will be me and Little Bug and Sweet Pea. Oh, and Pup.

And…

Yeah, I am not quite sure what to expect!

Complete chaos? Moments of craziness mixed in with moments of peace?

I’m thinking things might be on the crazy side for a while until we all get into a grove together.

Since December of 2011, when we thought Tracy was going to have a baby in July, I would tell myself, “If God thinks two kids 2 years old and younger is too much for me, He won’t let it happen.”

Well, when things fell through in January with Tracy, I figured God had decided kids two years apart was too much for me!

And then March 8th came. As we waited to hear if we would be chosen, I again told myself that if God thought it was too much for me, He wouldn’t let it happen.

And then May 12th we were matched with Melody and I would still think, “It won’t go through if God thinks it’s too much.”

And, well, now here I am!

Two kids, 2 years and under IS too much for ME.

But, you know what?

I am not on this journey of parenting my precious daughters alone!

As God has been with me through every phase of my life, He will walk with me every step of the way as I raise these girls to love Him and to desire to serve Him with everything they are.

Parenting is not for the weary.

It takes a strength I do not posses on my own.

It takes a strength that can only come from the Lord.

The picture above is a page in my Bible where this verse is found: Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and your plans will succeed. Proverbs 16:3

Written beside the verse is every phase of my life since graduating high school.

There is college with the date 8/29/00, teaching with the date 2/17/04, Dave with the date 7/6/06, conceiving with the date 2/5/08, IVF with the date 3/5/09 and parenting with the date 7/16/09.

Tonight I wrote down another phase of life with today’s date:

Parenting 2 with the date 8/18/11

No, I will not even attempt to do this on my own. I commit to the LORD all my hopes, plans and dreams for my precious girls.

It is only through Him that I will succeed.

That, and the fact that my mom is a hop, skip and a jump away!

- Elaine