Sweet Pea is still just on the probiotics for now. It’s been five days since she was back on them after being in the hospital and having the antibiotics.

I really don’t notice a difference in her comfort level. She is still having several times a day where her stomach is cramping and she is in pain.

I really do agree with my pedi that Sweet Pea’s problem is gastrointestinal and not necessarily from a problem with reflux. It is VERY obvious to me that when she is having a “spell” her stomach is hurting her.

We go back to see Dr M on Thursday.

I plan to tell her that I feel pretty confident her troubles are not reflux and are instead from methadone exposure in the womb (which has torn up her stomach) and/or a food sensitivity/allergy.

Dr M mentioned last week while we were there that if she continued to be in pain after a week on probiotics, we would discuss about possibly putting her on a prescription formula made for babies with very sensitive stomachs.

I also am going to talk to Dr M about Sweet Pea being on breast milk because I have now had two friends who are breastfeeding offer to pump milk for Sweet Pea!

If Dr M says it is worth a shot, I am willing to give it a try.

I just want to see my baby get relief from all this stomach pain.

We are on the right path to figure this out for Sweet Pea.

I do know that it may just be a matter of time before Sweet Pea’s stomach can heal from the drugs before she is totally free from all this pain, but I am very hopeful that, with the help of her pediatrician, we can figure out something to help her be more comfortable after she eats.

I went on a walk with just Pup tonight after putting Little Bug to bed. I was trying to put things into perspective and I was thinking about the fact that my girls won’t always be 2 years old and a newborn.

Sweet Pea won’t always be in pain after she eats forever, either.

It’s all a phase. A season. With time, it will all pass.

One day I just may find myself longing for the days when I have a 2 year old and a newborn, so I might as well choose to enjoy whatever phase of life God has me in right now.

Because all I have is right now.

I know I am going to blink and these girls are going to be getting married tomorrow.

- Elaine