There are two women in this world that are never far from my mind.

One of which I have not ever met.

These women are the ones God created two little lives in, the ones where my daughter’s spent their first 8-9 months of life, the women who share DNA with my daughters.

My daughters’ birth mothers.

Sometimes it is crazy to me to think about the fact that my two girls have another woman out there who is their biological mother.

It is not something that threatens me at all.

I am confident in my role as their mother and there is no doubt in my mind that both of my girls know who their Mommy is.

But, there are two women in this world who are biologically connected to my daughters.

The love I have for these two women is really very hard to adequately describe with written words.

I guess the easiest way to explain is to say that when people imply that once the TPR is signed that I will never want to have contact with these women again…nothing could be further from the truth.

At the same time, I do not wish to be best friends with these women, either, because given their circumstances, this would not be in the best interest of my daughters.

There is a fine line.

While I do not have an on-going relationship with either woman, I think about them both and pray for them both pretty often.

They will both always hold a very special place in my heart and they both know this.

I do wonder about the future. I wonder if my daughters will have the desire to meet their birth mothers when they are young adults.

I would welcome that and support my girls fully if they ever chose to initiate meeting their birth mothers.

I will never forget how God turned a situation that was very difficult into something that was very beautiful by allowing both of these women to choose adoption for their baby girls.

I connect with these women because, especially when I met Little Bug’s birth mother, I was a woman who was hurting for the complete opposite reason that Tracy was hurting.

I greatly desired to have life growing inside of me while Tracy was panicked when she found out she was pregnant.

Tracy could not parent Little Bug for multiple reasons and she chose adoption, which gave me something my body could not give.

I am forever connected to these women because my daughters are forever connected to them, too.

While they do not play an active role in their lives at this time, they both will forever be remembered for what they gave our family.

And because of that, they will forever be in my heart.

Would you say a prayer for them (Tracy & Melody) with me this Christmas Season?

- Elaine