This week was National Infertility Awareness Week.

While I no longer view my infertility as loss and instead see it as one of my greatest blessings in this life, I know there are many who are still living with the daily disappointments and broken dreams.

Infertility really is invisible loss because you are mourning something that cannot be seen.

It doesn’t take much for me to remember those days. Those days when my loss was magnified in my every day life.

Even though I grew up wondering if I would have problems conceiving (because my mom and several aunts had miscarriages or were never able to conceive), I don’t think I grew up thinking I would actually never be pregnant a day in my life.

Maybe it’s just me, but do you ever have those moments when you think of something as if it is the first time you are ever thinking about it, only whatever you are thinking about is actually something that has been around for a long, long time?

The other day, while driving (which is a good place to think!), I found myself thinking about the fact that haunted me only three years ago: I will never be pregnant. Ever.

Sometimes it still stops me in my tracks as I think about my own journey through infertility.

But it no longer paralyzes me and I now totally accept and embrace the fact that my children do not come from my womb.

My infertility had an end. It is not something I think about daily or even monthly. It began when we started trying to have a baby and it ended when I realized God had adoption in His plan for my life, and not pregnancy.

I guess the message I want to send out this National Infertility Awareness Week, is that there can be healing from infertility. Not necessarily physical healing because my reproductive organs are just as broken as they were five years ago. I am referring to emotional healing.

It is possible because through the faithfulness of God, I am living it and I praise Him for that!

If you are walking this road today, cling to God’s faithfulness! He will lead you through all of this and, if you believe His Word, He will show you His plan for your life – a plan that is far better and bigger than anything you can imagine today.

- Elaine