We had some major house happenings occur this weekend. I was sitting here trying to decide if I am going to blog about this live, as it is happening, or just write a post with the end result when it is over and done.

I decided that if I can blog about personal matters such as infertility for the world to read, then I can certainly blog about this, too.

We went to look at a house on Saturday, loved it – as in, it is perfect – and decided we’d make an offer on it today.

Only problem?

This house is a complete steal and there is much competition. In other words, we are not the only ones who found this gem over the weekend and have decided it is The Perfect House.

It’s a foreclosure and marked at a remarkable price which just so happened to be dropped 20k the day before Dave found it on Saturday and we called our relator to go take a look.

It is also in remarkable shape to be a foreclosure. Whoever left it 80 days ago did not go through destroying the place on their way out. They even took the time to attempt to repair the holes left in the wall where the TV had been!

I will eventually do an entire post on this house, but here are a few pictures:

I wish I could tell you that even when we left this house on Saturday and drove around the neighborhood and then drove by the house again on our way out and saw another relator there showing the house to another couple that my first reaction was one of: Oh! Well, that doesn’t matter at all, because if this is the house God has for us, nothing will keep Him from putting us in this house.

And I wish I could tell you that when our fears were confirmed this morning and we learned there would be much competition in getting into this house, my immediate response was one of trust in the LORD, instead of worry.

But I cannot tell you those things because, even after all I have seen God do in my life over the past five years, I still worried first, and trusted second.

Oh me of little faith. I cannot tell you how many times someone has written me an email saying that they “admire my faith in the Lord”.

I think all this just goes to show that putting your faith in the Lord is not easy. It is something that we must choose daily, and sometimes hourly to do.

And when I was worrying first I knew there really was no difference in this and what God taught me less than two years ago with Sweet Pea’s adoption: He taught me that HE IS IN CONTROL and nothing would stop Him from placing this baby in our family if she was to be our second daughter.

Oh the curse of being human.

But now that my house is quiet and I can think and pray, I’ve left this house at the feet of Jesus. If this is the house for us, He will put us there.

I guess I was subconsciously thinking in my mind that the next time something big came along that required me to put my faith in the Lord, it would be easy because I have witnessed two miracles in two years and I know God is in control of all things and has a beautiful plan for my life concerning every detail – even something so small as home buying.

I found this place of faith in Jesus much quicker this time around probably because I know from experience that God is in control. I held tangible evidence in my arms all morning long – my two precious daughters. But still. It was not my first reaction in all this house craziness that has transpired over the last 48 hours!

And that is crazy!

Even if we don’t end up getting this house, I’ve learned a valuable lesson.

Putting my faith in the Lord is a daily decision and it is never going to be easy.

And, just like before, if this is our house, I know, that I know that I know, nothing will stop God from opening doors for us to get in.

Now that I have found that place of complete trust and faith in the Lord, I am reminded of that sweet, sweet peace I felt as we waiting and waited to hear if we’d be chosen to be the parents of the baby. It truly is the sweetest place to be on earth because you don’t have to do anything. You just wait. And let God do.

I’ll keep you posted.

- Elaine