We are hanging in there. That’s pretty much all we can do at this point.

Sarge has an appointment with a GI next week. I’m not expecting any break through answers, but I am hoping that we can have maybe a little more insight as to why Sarge’s pain is so much more severe than Sweet Pea’s was.

This is certainly one of the hardest things God has asked us to do as parents. I still feel like no one is getting the best Mommy at this time.

But then Little Bug will say, “You’re the best Mommy ever. I wouldn’t want any other Mommy.”

Children have such forgiving hearts.

I know we will ALL make it through this season unscathed, but for now, each day is a struggle and there is a lot of spiritual warfare going on.

Choosing to follow God’s plan isn’t easy. It never is because if it was easy we could do His work in our own strength. That would not bring glory to His name.

It’s hard though when life as you know it gets disrupted and you are thrown a challenge that makes each day a struggle! It feels like the newborn phase with Sarge is going to last FOREVER. He is nearly 3 months old, but because of his prematurity, he is only gestationally 7 weeks old. Anyone with a 7-week-old is in survival mode, but it feels like we should be beyond all this by now because he’s nearly 3 months old! Because of the drug issues this survival phase is just going to last a whole lot longer. But it will end. I tell myself this every single day. Dave and I typically end the day (which technically never really ends since we are up with Sarge in the night as well) by saying something like, “Well, we got through another day! One day closer to being through this phase.”

Despite the challenges we are up against, Sarge is the sweetest little boy. His cry is precious. I know that may sound weird, but his cry is sweet. It’s like he’s saying, “Help me! I am so tired of feeling pain! When will it ever end?” when he cries. And the face he makes when he cries is so pathetic. Underneath all the pain is a sweet little boy. I look forward to getting to know who Sarge is as a little person. His personality will show eventually.

I feel like a broken record asking for continued prayers, but we still need them.

- Elaine