I wrote this on July 29th.

Today, one thought rings true in my head…..I am so glad it is not this time last week!!!

The safety of that baby, the deception of the mother all these months, and the loss of the dream of “Baby 4” are heavy on our hearts.

I almost feel like I should be mourning longer, but ultimately and honestly, our hearts are filled with tremendous peace as we look to moving forward from all that has transpired over the past 2 weeks.

The peace we feel can ONLY be a direct result of our absolute trust and faith in God and confidence in His Sovereignty - even when He does not.

To our human minds, it is extremely hard to comprehend the outcome of this situation, but this is exactly why we are all called to live by faith and trust in the Lord, especially when things don’t make sense! It is there, and only there, true peace lies.

Dave & I look to our future with great expectation. We are open to where the Lord leads and, right now, in this season, it is a time of seeking Him and allowing Him to lead us to where He would have us go. It is both scary and exciting to think about, and we ask your continued prayers on our family as we seek the Lord about what is next.

We do worry about that sweet innocent baby boy, but ultimately we have to remember that he is God’s first and foremost. We have to rest in the knowledge that we did everything we could to be available to have that baby join our family. And the rest we trust to the Sovereignty of God even though we can’t understand it all.

With each adoption, God has given us a verse to claim and this time the verse was Psalm 118:23, The Lord has done this and it is marvelous in our eyes.

He’s just still DOING and, at this time, we don’t know what exactly He is doing….but I can guarantee you that it is going to be marvelous in our eyes - whether we remain a family of 5 or whether God does have plans for another child to join our family at some point.

It is well with my soul.

- Elaine